I Miss You

Yes its been a while since we’ve talked but i have to admit that i do miss you . You cheated on me and you hurt me really bad . You told me time and time again that you were sorry and that you loved me. But then i think to myself , how much could you love me if you were willing to hurt me. Yes i was stupid for going back to you , but i guess thats what “love” does ? Yes , i loved you and yes i still care about you. I dont love you like i did before. Because honestly, i realized when you moved that i deserved SO much better than you. Yes , i have made mistakes since you were gone but im learning slowly. The best thing i did was find out that you cheated on me because i would have gone nowhere staying with you. So im saying thank you for cheating on me. You made me open up my eyes to realize how young i am and stressing myself over a guy isnt worth it. I dont miss shit you put me through , i miss the good times we used to have. You are a cool person , but that just isnt enough for me. I see your happy with another girl and i wish you the VERY best ! Im glad your making someone else your world like how i used to be. Hopefully you give her all the things you lacked giving to me. I care about you but letting you go was the best thing i did . Take care of yourself (:

(Source: undefinable-xo)

Random Memory

About like a month or two ago , while I was wandering the streets in Soho , there was this guy in a car parked to the side just staring and smiling at me. I smiled back cause he was cute and I passed by him a few times cause I had to and everytime I did he stuck his head all the way out and smiled , even through the sideview mirror ! Now that I think back to that moment .. why didn’t I signal him to come to me ? , I mean obviously he wanted to talk .. I’m so stupid for not talking to him .. sucks cause ill probably never see him again :/

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Dear Old Bestfriend .

So today is your birthday and I haven’t told you Happy Birthday. We used to be besttt friends and now we don’t even look eachothers way. Sometimes I see you and I tear up a little bit because I know that we used to be soo close and now we are so far apart. I honestly don’t even know how we got here. You were like my sister. We had good times and bad times but we always worked it out. We had a strong 3 year friendship and it was broken within 3 months. I’m soo sad that were not friends anymore. I’m not going to stress it though because I tried to make amends and you talked about me behind my back. I would NEVER do that to you. I’m not the one to believe what other people say but you told somebody things that I never told anyone else and you mocked me. How much of a best friend can you be if you hurt me like that? I apoligized to you for our friendship fading and I didn’t even know why I was the one apoligizing. I guess we both did our wrongs but it’s just really sad that it’s come to this. I don’t hate you. Your secrets will forever be safe with me. I love you and care for you very much and I hope your having a great life. Happy Birthday.

Love,

a sad, angry, old bestfriend </3

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Haters.

I just don’t understand why people have to hate on other people. We are ALL humans. We don’t need to be competing against each other. The problem with humans is that they can’t accept when other people are doing better than them. When one person is ahead they do everything in their power to bring them down. Is that necessary ? Like do you seriously HAVE to do that ? We are supposed to love one another in this world. And if you don’t like someone then leave them ALONE !!! Their is no reason to hate on them. So what if you don’t like them , that’s no reason for being be cruel. In my opinion , the word “hate” is a word that should not even be in our vocabulary. Yes we all throw it around too often and it’s a horrible word. People these days don’t care about other peoples feelings and it’s not right. I know they say that if you have haters then you must be doing something right. Although I think that is true , I believe that people shouldn’t even have haters to begin with because we should all pay attention to ourselves opposed to paying attention and being jealous of other peoples accomplishments. All in all , if you don’t have anything nice to say keep it to your fucking self ! Nobody wants drama in their lives, just do you and worry about your damn self. And if you don’t like my opinion , idgaf so don’t take the time to give me yours. Life is just too short to be hating on other peoples lives. Take that time to worry about your future.

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People Who Talk About Hating Their Life

SHUT THE FUCK UP ! Your living aren’t you ? Be happy that you get to live in this world. You know how many deceased people probably wished that they were still alive. You should always be grateful for what you have and for just being able to wake up every morning. Nobody’s life is perfect , even celebrities. Everybody goes thru hard times , some harder than others. You just have to keep on going. Maybe sometimes you feel like you don’t know what your living for and you wish you would just die , don’t EVER think that way! EVERYBODY is special and everybody is cared for at least by one person. Strive for the best and push thru the difficult times. I asure you that things will get better , it may takes years but they will. Obstacles are going to come your way. Nobody said life was easy but it is a privilege.

(Source: undefinable-xo)