Yes its been a while since we’ve talked but i have to admit that i do miss you . You cheated on me and you hurt me really bad . You told me time and time again that you were sorry and that you loved me. But then i think to myself , how much could you love me if you were willing to hurt me. Yes i was stupid for going back to you , but i guess thats what “love” does ? Yes , i loved you and yes i still care about you. I dont love you like i did before. Because honestly, i realized when you moved that i deserved SO much better than you. Yes , i have made mistakes since you were gone but im learning slowly. The best thing i did was find out that you cheated on me because i would have gone nowhere staying with you. So im saying thank you for cheating on me. You made me open up my eyes to realize how young i am and stressing myself over a guy isnt worth it. I dont miss shit you put me through , i miss the good times we used to have. You are a cool person , but that just isnt enough for me. I see your happy with another girl and i wish you the VERY best ! Im glad your making someone else your world like how i used to be. Hopefully you give her all the things you lacked giving to me. I care about you but letting you go was the best thing i did . Take care of yourself (:
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About like a month or two ago , while I was wandering the streets in Soho , there was this guy in a car parked to the side just staring and smiling at me. I smiled back cause he was cute and I passed by him a few times cause I had to and everytime I did he stuck his head all the way out and smiled , even through the sideview mirror ! Now that I think back to that moment .. why didn’t I signal him to come to me ? , I mean obviously he wanted to talk .. I’m so stupid for not talking to him .. sucks cause ill probably never see him again :/
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So today is your birthday and I haven’t told you Happy Birthday. We used to be besttt friends and now we don’t even look eachothers way. Sometimes I see you and I tear up a little bit because I know that we used to be soo close and now we are so far apart. I honestly don’t even know how we got here. You were like my sister. We had good times and bad times but we always worked it out. We had a strong 3 year friendship and it was broken within 3 months. I’m soo sad that were not friends anymore. I’m not going to stress it though because I tried to make amends and you talked about me behind my back. I would NEVER do that to you. I’m not the one to believe what other people say but you told somebody things that I never told anyone else and you mocked me. How much of a best friend can you be if you hurt me like that? I apoligized to you for our friendship fading and I didn’t even know why I was the one apoligizing. I guess we both did our wrongs but it’s just really sad that it’s come to this. I don’t hate you. Your secrets will forever be safe with me. I love you and care for you very much and I hope your having a great life. Happy Birthday.
Love,
a sad, angry, old bestfriend </3
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